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Monday, 14 May 2012

  • Praise God!

    Today was the first time I really came under heavy demonic attack and for the first time I was able to stand firm on God and cling to Him and through Him got through it. During that period I did not become manifested by the demons, nor did I lose my memory (or both). During the time I was attacked I read through a lot of prayers in my book Prayers that Rout Demons by John Eckhardt. I cannot remember the titles that I prayed but some that I remember included the following: Prayers in Christ, Warfare Prayers (against Satan and the devils). Prayers against Satan, Prayers for Self Deliverance, Prayers for Deliverance, Prayers for Deliverance from Evil, Apostolic Prayers, Binding and Loosing.


    I also listened to some worship music during all of this, and read the book of Ephesians replacing out loud changing parts that say "we" "us" etc. to "me" or "I" so that it is more personal and I feel more as if Paul wrote that book specifically for me at this moment with the trail I was in.

    The final thing I did was I wrote my own Psalm which I will close with this:

    Lord, why does it seem like you have not moved? Why does it seem like you are distant? Why do you allow me to suffer in the ways I have suffered in? This pains me and has caused me very much Pain. Yet, in the midst of this You gave me some victory. You gave me counsel. You did not allow me to fall before my enemy, the devils. You gave me strength and courage to counterattack them. You preserved my mind, soul, spirit. You have blessed me and the victory belongs to you.

Thursday, 10 May 2012

  • A Call for a Return to Peace in the Church

    Before writing this, I want to be clear that I have been part of churches that are militaristic and support what the military does and the wars, as well as Christians serving in the military. So in other words I have seen and thought on both sides of the issue.

    I would like to call the church to "return" to promoting peace and to abandon the things associated with the military. This does not mean that we "shun" or do not associate with the people who are currently involved in the military and churches that have come to a conclusion that certain wars and even Christians serving in the military.

    That said, I want to us to take a look at the early church writings of some of the earliest Christians. I have found a site that has put many of these writings of the early church: http://www.christian-history.org/christian-quotes.html

    Letter to Diognetus, A.D. 80 - 200

    Christians … love all men, and are persecuted by all. They are unknown and condemned; they are put to death, and restored to life. They are poor, yet make many rich; they are in lack of all things, and yet abound in all; they are dishonored, and yet in their very dishonor are glorified. They are evil spoken of, and yet are justified; they are reviled, and bless; they are insulted, and repay the insult with honor; they do good, yet are punished as evil-doers. When punished, they rejoice as if quickened into life. They are assailed by the Jews as foreigners, and are persecuted by the Greeks; yet those who hate them are unable to assign any reason for their hatred. (ch. 5)

    According to this statement we can learn a few things. First, Christians were persecuted in the early church. They were killed for there beliefs. So many of their aspects were "odd" to the people of the world. For one thing they had little money yet they become very rich by their faith in Jesus. They lack the things of the world, yet the have all they need. People dishonor them, yet they become glorified. People speak evil of them, yet they are justified. But ultimately the one thing I want to focus on with this statement is that they are hated persecuted by the Jews as well as the Greeks, yet those who are persecution them can find no reason for their hatred. So it is clear that the early church was hated by the world. Even Jesus said in the Gospels that "the world will hate you because of me." However despite this though even the book of Acts records high numbers of converts being converted such as in Acts 2:41 were there were 3000 that became new believers of Christ in one day. I would wager that the early church could have fought back if they wanted to. They at the very least had the numbers... yet they did not. Now lets look at another quote. This one is from an early church Martyr named Justin:

    Justin Martyr, c. A.D. 150

    "For out of Zion shall go forth the law, and the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. And he shall judge among the nations, and shall rebuke many people; and they shall beat their swords into ploughshares, and their spears into pruning hooks: nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more" [Is. 2:3]. And that this did come to pass, we can convince you.

    For from Jerusalem men went out into the world, twelve in number and these illiterate, of no ability in speaking; but by the power of God they proclaimed to every race of men that they were sent by Christ to teach to all the word of God. Now we who used to murder one another do not only refrain from making war upon our enemies, but also, that we may not lie nor deceive our examiners, willingly die confessing Christ.

    For that saying, "The tongue has sworn but the mind is unsworn" [a justification for lying used in Justin's time], might be imitated by us in this matter. But if the soldiers enrolled by you, who have taken the military oath, prefer their allegiance to their own life, parents, country, and all kindred, though you can offer them nothing incorruptible, it would be truly ridiculous if we, who earnestly long for incorruption, should not endure all things in order to obtain what we desire from him who is able to grant it. (First Apology 39)

    Justin believed that the early church was a fulfillment of this passage he quoted in Isaiah 2:3. In the second paragraph, Justin is referring to the disciples who after Jesus had worked through the cross had sent the disciples out to teach people about God. The culture of the world then had people how had many enemies. For example the Jews were enemies with just about all the cultures: the Romans, the Greeks, the Gentiles. The Romans did not like the Jews. The Gentiles had issues with the Jews. The list could go on but I hope you get the idea. However, when people began to believe the word of God, people who were enemies were then laying down their weapons and were instead praising God and embracing each other. Not to say there were not problms and even the book of Acts does record some of these in Acts 15. However those in service would abandon their oath and their service. They knew they  belonged to a "new" kingdom. One that Jesus was bringing in that even John saw in Revelation 7:9 where all peoples of the world gathered. Let's look at another quote by Justin

    We who were filled with war, mutual slaughter, and every wickedness have each, through the whole earth, changed our warlike weapons—our swords into ploughshares and our spears into implements of tillage. In their place, we cultivate godliness, righteousness, philanthropy, faith, and hope, which we have from the Father himself through the One who was crucified. (Dialogue with Trypho 110)

    Again, the people who once were fighting and used weapons, or as I would call it "the way of the world" now abandoned there spears and swords and  embraced each other.

    Clement of Alexandria, c. A.D. 190

    For we are not to delineate the faces of idols, we who are prohibited to cleave to them; nor a sword, nor a bow, since we follow peace. (The Instructor III:11)

    Tertullian, c. A.D. 210

    The Christian does no harm even to his foe. (Apology 46)

    Two more very quotes that verify how the early church functioned. I have often heard a very good quote. Granted the first few times I heard it with my former beliefs I mocked it... however now I embrace it: "When God said to love our enemies, I don't think He meant to kill them." Perhaps it is a "cheesy" line, but I think it is true. We are to love our enemies. I know I have heard that there will be war regardless. I agree with those who say that. In fact, I would be worried if there was not now as even Jesus said "there will be wars and rumors of wars and nation shall rise against nation." However, it seems like some people in church seem to think that we can have justified wars or even that we can help to do our part.

    I would challenge this view. I would say if the world is going to go to war, then let it.  However, Christians I believe should not get involved other then the loving of the people that are under attack and persecution and the people in the military. In fact some of the most wounded people can be some that come out of military service. They may or may not have physical problems... however many of them have deep wounds that need healed and they needs to  be set free from the horrors of war. This is what I believe to be the church's mission in regards to war and those serving. A Christian should hate to see death and war brings death:

    Now let's look at a more modern book on the subject of Peace. For this I am going to use A Culture of Peace: "God's Vision for the Church" by Alan Krieder, Eleanor Krieder, and Paulus Widjaja I think the first couple chapters says well some points I want to make.

    The authors discuss suggest that we bring about a church as a culture of peace (9) which may be odd as in our day and age we probably would not think of a church with the word "peace." As we have seen from my earlier quotes and even this book affirms that the church was about "peace:"

    The early church were noticed as a culture of peace such as an early martyr named Justin: “We… delighted in war, in the slaughter of one another, and every kind of iniquity; [but we] have in every part of the world converted our weapons of war into implements of peace- our swords into ploughshares, our spears into farmer’s tools- and we cultivate piety, justice, brotherly charity, faith and hope, which we derive from the Father through the crucified savior (9)

    The authors go on to say that the early church had broken down walls that had separated them such as cultures and tribes and languages. The people began to share a life together. The authors also discuss Acts chapter 2:

    Pentecost in Acts 2:9-11 transformed the chaos that Babel created into a culture of peace and harmony. In Babel God divided people into groups separated from each other; whereas Pentecost  united people previously separated into one body. There were some tensions though such as the Hellenists and the Hebrews in many churches (acts 6:1-6)(12)

    Back in the book of Genesis, God created a confused language that separated the world and created divisions among the people. Today we can still see this. However, due to the power of God and the work of Christ on the cross we can see that God had begun to bring all people back together. Currently we wait to the day that this will be fulfilled as John saw it in Revelation 7:9. When Pentecost happened God had begun to heal and reconcile people together. "Race" was beginning to die, and now we are going to be united as one race as Paul said, "Neither Greek nor Jew, Male or Female."

    According to the authors of A Culture of Peace God had begun a work of reconciliation with Abraham. This was now being fulfilled with Christ. The early Christians knew this to be true (12) and Paul even affirmed this in Ephesians 4:3 that the result of the power of the cross had brought the Jew's biggest enemy: the Gentiles together and the result was Jews and Gentiles praising God and living together in peace (12-13).

    The authors of A Culture of Peace discuss how even one of those closest to Jesus had questions when God first brought some of the "enemies"" of the Jews before him in Acts 10:

    Peter gets the message of Christ’s peace but finds out that it come at work in the wrong person: the enemy. This became central throughout the New Testament. This was important to early Christians, because with gratitude and puzzlement, were trying to come to terms with what God had done. Through the work of Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit despite differences in races and backgrounds making them into one body. Today we are often different then the early Christians as we have often forget (or do not know) the origins as the church of Jesus Christ, are in miraculous reconciliation (18-19).

    It is very clear that how the Spirit of God works then. Culture and race did not matter. Rather what mattered was Jesus and the power of the Holy Spirit was merging people into one body. Even in the New Testament the word peace was used so much. The people even referred to the Message of Jesus as the Gospel of Peace. Paul uses "peace" terms in many of his writings such as Romans 5:1 and 10. God has called us to peace 1 Cor. 7:15. Finally two of the New Testament writers call us to seek peace with everyone in Hebrews 12:14 and 1 Peter 3:11. Lastly Paul even starts most of the letters he wrote with something like "grace and peace to you.(19)"

    There is so much more I could say on this issue. However, I hope I have made a good point by now. I am asking that churches would encourage peace. Stop suggesting that we join the military and aid in the war efforts. I find it odd that many churches are looking for ways to stand out in the world, so that they are different. However, what I personally see is many churches going on in the ways of the world. What would happen if all churches (or even a large number) began to discourage military service? I would wager at this point (at least in the USA), they would not have enough people to carry on the endless wars that we are now involved with. Then the USA would be faced with two choices: Stop  the wars and bring home the troops or institute a draft. Then what would happen when the numbers of Christians who refused to go in the draft? There would be persecution. I want to be clear that I would hate on one hand to be persecuted or to see it. However, if such a thing happened the church would grow even more.

    So in closing, I am encouraging the church and the people of the world to lay down our arms and embrace Jesus and the Gospel of peace. Let us do what the martyr Justin said and trade our "spears" or "guns" for ploughshears and love the people of the world. Let us again return to a church and a culture of peace.

     

     

     

     

     

Tuesday, 08 May 2012

  • Honeychild film

    A friend of mine is making a film called Honeychild that I am trying to help her promote. I would encourage you to watch the trailer as I think it would be a very good film. It is about someone who found God and healing in the sex trafficking world she was involved with as a child.

     

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zxm1U4j1Vrw&feature=share

     

    Also here is the link to the website of the film:

    http://www.honeychildfilm.com/Honeychild/film.html

     

    If you could also pass these links along that would greatly appreciated and even consider donating to the film cause (the above link).

     

    Thanks everyone!

Tuesday, 01 May 2012

Saturday, 31 March 2012

  • I feel like this entire years has been a waste.

    Now before I start writing this, I want to be clear that there have been some good things about this year. I have made quite a lot of new friends and have a lot of people that care about me. Beyond that though this year has been frustrating. I feel like it has been a big waste. If I could go back and do some things over again I would. 

    I feel like this year there have only been two times that I have enjoyed. The first would be the month of July. During July I had really just began my deliverance ministry. Of course looking back on this I wish I had done the inner healing instead of just having demons cast out of me. Also back then, I had two really good friends here that made ALL the difference despite the hardships that I was going through. Back then I guess I was also hoping that those two friends would have changed their mind on the move they ended up doing in September. But either way it was not really an issue for me at this point as it would have been about two months away. 

    I have mixed feelings to this day about their move. First I question if they discerned correctly and even then a lot of people who were involved with helping them discern did not tell them the same thing I felt at the time when they were going (including how I feel now) and that would be. Of course maybe they got something from God that I am not aware of still to this day, but I have always felt that the roles should be reversed on what they are currently doing right now. I think its such a shame. On top of that I just have to always question with how they were so eager to intervene but then disappear about two months later. I am not saying that there have not been some good things that they have done and gotten involved with since moving, but I will admit I miss them. Last summer we were communicating daily and having good times. Some weeks I am lucky to talk to them for a little while... Of course a 3 hour time difference has not been good for us. 

    This leads me to the other good part of this year, which happened about a month ago. I went to visit my two friends in California. That week we did a lot of good things. I got to see must of LA and some of the surrounding area. I made two really good friends out there, and for the only time still to this date I did some inner healing. I got to see a place that I felt in many ways I belonged. First time in years I felt this way, plus a lot of the people I connected with seem to believe my experiences and did not approach it with a sense of "skeptiscm" that I feel from some (not all) people back where I live. 

    Even last June I questioned if this was where I was to be. I only really stayed during the summer due to my friends (who in about two months moved). A lot of the reason I stayed after they left was to try and reunite with my now ex-wife. I will be honest I was skeptical but I stayed. Now I feel like I am being punished for listening to them instead of my "gut" instinct and get the heck out of the area. 

    Since getting back from California, I have felt very depressed. It is like I ask my self every day, "Why the ^%$^ am I hear?!" There is really no reason for me to be back here. I really wish that something had opened up there or I could have even stayed a couple of weeks longer. I am confident I could have found some kind of employment to be able to stay. 

    I feel like there is little point to me to be here. I am not able to nor have I continued the inner healing that I need. The person I did some of it with did recommend me to someone, but they are too busy. 

    I am hoping to somehow move out there. Not sure how it will happen. I really just want to start over since my marriage is over now. Why would I stay in the area that my ex-wife is from? Its not like I have a family here? most of the friends I have here are busy with school that it is hard to make plans with them. I know that every weekend I have been back (except for this one as I gave up after last weekend) I have posted on my facebook that I am looking for someone to do something with and it has not happened. I have applied to a school that I want to go to... specifically because they have several classes that I want to take that most schools do not offer and even the ones that offer similar courses I would be afraid of the school's theology. 

    Additionally I feel more called to urban missions then even going to another country to do missions in another country.

    I do not know what else to say. I just feel frustrated and depressed anymore. I hope something works out. I am not saying that I have been closed off to the idea of staying. I feel it would have to be a career oriented job. Not like at a restaurant or a retail job, mostly because those jobs I could have gotten in LA too. But in a nut shell... I feel very unmotivated most days. I feel like some days it is a struggle to get out of bed let alone do much else.

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